The "f*#k-its" !!

There are days I feel like I fight a mighty fight.  I have a friend and mentor here in town who describes the feelings and emotions I’m fighting on these days as the “F*#K its!” 

Yes, there, I even typed out a euphemism. 

And I while I think that is a very harsh and vulgar word, there is no better way to describe this place I can get into some days with my fight to eat clean and keep pursuing my wellness goals.

I am sure you know the feeling.  You are tired, maybe you are hormonal, maybe it’s your mid-afternoon energy slump time, maybe you are having a very bad day or maybe it’s your third day of sugar detox and you would kill to have any taste of sweet in your mouth…. you get the picture.

"But the “F*#K its!” are when all your food addictions and bad habits speak to you the loudest."

They whisper seductively and tell you that you are powerful, you can do whatever, eat whatever and your body will miraculously be able to accommodate junk going in and sitting still all day long and still be healthy.  But in no known universe is this ever the case.

I have come to accept that this feeling is a universal feeling in one aspect of life if not another.  It is something that we all must guard against. 

While I have not learned of any secret weapon to fight against these feelings, maybe awareness is the first step.  When I have those feelings and thoughts and I take a minute to contemplate them, I become aware of them, I can gain power over them.  For me, understanding that these feelings are 1) going to come and its normal and not some sort of failing on my part and 2) that they are just that, feelings, and not an indicator of reality.  Then I can acknowledge them and wait for them to pass without acting on them.  To be honest, I have not perfected the letting them pass without acting part, but my percentages of success are going up.  However, the first step above, for me, was key in starting to have some success though. 

"I had to be aware that they were in fact, just feelings."  

And that acknowledging them and being aware of them is so much more powerful than just trying to ignore them which often lead to unconscious acts like “wow I just ate that whole thing” or “why is my car in the drive thru at XYZ restaurant”. 

Instead, I can own the feelings and try and take constructive action like reaching out to someone I trust and creating accountability to stay on track, getting up from my desk and walking around, going to the gym to even walk on the treadmill, whatever changes my landscape and quiets those thoughts.  And then I can say, “F*#K it” to the “F*#K its!”